if you could only see the way I look at you, you might believe
My day is perched on the edge. That’s all I can say about it; that’s all that I feel right now… I can’t really explain the feeling either, since it’s this random jumpiness I get sometimes, and the fact that it’s settling upon me on a Friday afternoon, with the weekend looming, doesn’t make it easier to bear. I don’t know why I’m feeling this way… Maybe it seems like so much in my life is in flux at the moment? I think the key word in that sentence is seems, since what I’ve been blessed with is quite stable, and God will take care of me anyway… It’s all a matter of viewpoint and perspective.
I wish I had a group to hang with sometimes. Wait–let me rephrase that. I do, but I don’t feel entirely comfortable with them, and I’m not sure why–every rational reason seems to point to how I should feel when I’m around them, I mean, they’re the youth leaders and the car guys–we have loads in common, we go to events and do stuff together, but somehow the walls are still there in a capacity that’s lamentable given how open I’ve been with other groups in the past. But maybe I should just take it all in stride, as it’s probably all in my mind again anyway. Time.
I need some time with Him. I can feel where my priorities are at the moment, and it’s not where they should be. No guilt, just a realignment…
*praying for you*
*hugs*
Well, I know what you are going through been there done that. BUt you know you will come to a point where you will feel the way you need to. Your roomate.