{"id":611,"date":"2003-08-11T08:18:00","date_gmt":"2003-08-11T13:18:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=611"},"modified":"2003-08-11T08:18:00","modified_gmt":"2003-08-11T13:18:00","slug":"weekend-confessional","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=611","title":{"rendered":"weekend confessional"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I really, really really, REALLY <i>really<\/i> really do not want to be here at work this morning.  I could have called in sick.  Something inside me said, &#8220;Go to work,&#8221; though, so here I am.  Heh.  I&#8217;m still bleary-eyed from waking up, and I got here about five minutes late, but oh well.  Betty (my boss) is out of the office most of this weekend anyway.  And now I have to deal with stupid timesheets, where I basically have to account for every hour I worked during the month of July, and bill as many of them to clients as possible, but not too many, &#8217;cause they&#8217;ll call me and say, &#8220;This didn&#8217;t take that long,&#8221; and blah blah blah&#8230;  It would be alright, and it has been in the past; I just wish I had been more diligent about it last month.  Phooey.<\/p>\n<p>No nap yesterday, which is probably just as well since I don&#8217;t really want to develop a habit of taking a nap every day, as that opens the door to feeling really tired during certain parts of the day, typically early afternoon, and I get dependent on them.  Happened in college, so I <i>know<\/i>.  Went shopping with Leslie.  She was buying birthday presents for people on her upcoming missions trip to Romania, and I had to get some odds and ends for the apartment.  We went to Walmart first, which was a huge zoo since it&#8217;s back-to-school week, and then to the mall, where we ran into Erin (my ex) and her current beau, Dave.  It was really awkward for me.  Dave&#8217;s really a great guy, and goes to our church, helps out with youth and everything, and I have nothing but respect for him, but it&#8217;s still just odd, all the more since she&#8217;s about 5&#8217;9&#8243; and he&#8217;s considerably shorter about probably about two-thirds her size.  I can&#8217;t really <i>see<\/i> them together, but they must get along well&#8230;  It was just weird.  Leslie and Erin made casual conversation about the Romania trip while Dave and I stood there, then somehow we started talking about my glasses, and Leslie, being the very forthcoming person she is, mentioned that she doesn&#8217;t really like them, that they&#8217;re too big for my face, and Erin chimed in, by which point I&#8217;m laughing about it and everything, doing my best, but I can still feel myself turning red as a beet (when I do, it&#8217;s <i>obvious<\/i>)&#8230;  Yeah.  That encounter didn&#8217;t exactly leave the best taste in my mind, so to speak.<\/p>\n<p>The rain fell last night.  It made me want someone there next to me in bed, someone whose rhythmic breathing I could feel as the sound of the rain manifested itself.  For some reason, the night hasn&#8217;t erased that desire, but only made it stronger this morning.<\/p>\n<p>Okay, mind over matter.  Work.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I really, really really, REALLY really really do not want to be here at work this morning. I could have called in sick. Something inside me said, &#8220;Go to work,&#8221; though, so here I am. Heh. I&#8217;m still bleary-eyed from waking up, and I got here about five minutes late, but oh well. Betty (my [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/611"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=611"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/611\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=611"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=611"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=611"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}