{"id":2398,"date":"2023-10-13T17:00:52","date_gmt":"2023-10-13T22:00:52","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=2398"},"modified":"2023-10-13T17:00:53","modified_gmt":"2023-10-13T22:00:53","slug":"someday-these-wings-will-perish-in-your-sight","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=2398","title":{"rendered":"someday these wings will perish in your sight"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>Rereading more journal entries&#8230;  I&#8217;ve decided summer 2004 was the Season of Peak Possibility, the axis around which my life turns, before and after.  I had a stable job at UNC.  I had just returned from an exhilarating trip to France.  I still had the Supra.  No romantic attachments.  My writing had matured to the point where it better conveyed what I was thinking and feeling.  I hadn&#8217;t committed to PBC yet.  I was beginning to study systematic theology with Aaron, and was dipping my toe into what would eventually become a treasured friend group.  Yep; pretty sure it was never as good as it was then, at least from the array of options laid out before me.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Do I miss it?  Absolutely.  But in thinking about my situation now relative to then, I can&#8217;t decide whether I&#8217;m more resentful over the loss of possibilities in general that accompanies a decision, or of the outworking of the decision I did make.  The grass IS always greener, but I still can&#8217;t help but wonder how those parallel-universe versions of me are making out.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Rereading more journal entries&#8230; I&#8217;ve decided summer 2004 was the Season of Peak Possibility, the axis around which my life turns, before and after. I had a stable job at UNC. I had just returned from an exhilarating trip to France. I still had the Supra. No romantic attachments. My writing had matured to the [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2398"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2398"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2398\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2399,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2398\/revisions\/2399"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2398"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2398"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2398"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}