{"id":2295,"date":"2017-12-19T23:04:15","date_gmt":"2017-12-20T04:04:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=2295"},"modified":"2025-01-29T13:15:46","modified_gmt":"2025-01-29T18:15:46","slug":"if-i-had-the-chance-love","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=2295","title":{"rendered":"if I had the chance love"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em>i would not hesitate<br \/>\nto tell you all things i never said before<br \/>\ndon&#8217;t tell me it&#8217;s too late<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Benjen is sitting on my lap, purring loudly, as I write this.  He&#8217;s mostly white, with black and gray tabby splashes on his back and head, and he&#8217;s very affectionate.  He&#8217;s unable to settle, but is pacing around, curling around and looking up at me, tapping me with his paw and nuzzling my nose with his cheek when I get close.  Phoebe and Odin went through similar stages as kittens; I&#8217;ll miss it when they get older.<\/p>\n<p>I think this was a &#8220;message song&#8221; from her to me on the mix cd.  And I missed it completely, or willfully misinterpreted it.  For all the incredulity we express toward characters from films when it seems they can&#8217;t see what&#8217;s right in front of them, it&#8217;s probably time we cut them some slack, or at least acknowledge their experience may be closer to reality than is generally believed&#8212;even if it is shown in a caricatured way, neatly wrapped up at the end of the movie&#8217;s two-hour running time.<\/p>\n<p>I should write a post on more &#8220;message songs&#8221; in my mental Rolodex.  I&#8217;ve already alluded to one in Dar Williams&#8217; &#8220;Iowa&#8221; a few posts down.  More to come.<\/p>\n<p><em>&#8217;cause i&#8217;ve relied on my illusion<br \/>\nto keep me warm at night<br \/>\nand i&#8217;ve denied in my capacity to love<br \/>\nbut i am willing to give up this fight<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>i would not hesitate to tell you all things i never said before don&#8217;t tell me it&#8217;s too late Benjen is sitting on my lap, purring loudly, as I write this. He&#8217;s mostly white, with black and gray tabby splashes on his back and head, and he&#8217;s very affectionate. He&#8217;s unable to settle, but is [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2295"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2295"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2295\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2296,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2295\/revisions\/2296"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2295"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2295"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2295"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}