{"id":220,"date":"2002-05-20T08:24:00","date_gmt":"2002-05-20T13:24:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=220"},"modified":"2002-05-20T08:24:00","modified_gmt":"2002-05-20T13:24:00","slug":"220","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=220","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I just wanted her there yesterday.  All day.  I wanted her to share in the elation and to have heard the words I heard.  But especially during the night.  Falling asleep was incredibly difficult.  My emotions preyed upon me again; the gut-wrenching hurt revisited my memories, the wondering, the endless wondering, conjecturing, and everything else.  I hate feeling that way.  I just wanted her there.  Even when I woke, this morning, the emotional residue was present.  I must have dreamed about things in some capacity, even though I don&#8217;t remember.  I don&#8217;t know.  I need to get back to work.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I just wanted her there yesterday. All day. I wanted her to share in the elation and to have heard the words I heard. But especially during the night. Falling asleep was incredibly difficult. My emotions preyed upon me again; the gut-wrenching hurt revisited my memories, the wondering, the endless wondering, conjecturing, and everything else. [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/220"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=220"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/220\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=220"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=220"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=220"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}