{"id":22,"date":"2001-01-17T21:06:00","date_gmt":"2001-01-18T02:06:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=22"},"modified":"2001-01-17T21:06:00","modified_gmt":"2001-01-18T02:06:00","slug":"22","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=22","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Am I really me?  I am myself, I have been given this body, this mind, and this life.  I am me, this particular collection of hopes, fears, loves, hates, discrepancies, useless knowledge, body masses and shapes.<\/p>\n<p>What is a soul?  We never finished that discussion.  All I know is that mine is aching, throbbing with memories, sadness, and yet&#8230;  I have to be here.  I&#8217;ve given this day so much, wrung out my heart upon His altar, but nothing concrete.  Is it supposed to be concrete?  There is faith; am I learning that?  Do I want to learn that?  The quietness of the room offers no replies, only the watery sounds of the fish tank and the soundless noise of the light striking the walls.  I could lose myself in music&#8211;no.  I could bury my head in my arms like I have so many times today&#8211;no.  I could attempt absolution through occupation&#8211;but I have to face the realities.  Things will be said soon enough&#8211;am I ready?  Can I be?  I have to say no; the full extent of which I know not yet.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Am I really me? I am myself, I have been given this body, this mind, and this life. I am me, this particular collection of hopes, fears, loves, hates, discrepancies, useless knowledge, body masses and shapes. What is a soul? We never finished that discussion. All I know is that mine is aching, throbbing with [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=22"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/22\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=22"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=22"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=22"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}