{"id":1314,"date":"2009-07-09T22:43:00","date_gmt":"2009-07-10T03:43:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=1314"},"modified":"2009-07-09T22:43:00","modified_gmt":"2009-07-10T03:43:00","slug":"a-pocketful-of-mumbles","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=1314","title":{"rendered":"a pocketful of mumbles"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><em>such are promises<br \/>all lies and jests<br \/>still a man hears what he wants to hear<br \/>and disregards the rest<\/em><\/p>\n<p>I have a headful of buzzing bees, never pleasant when I should be sleeping.&nbsp; It&#8217;s been a long day, and I&#8217;m especially tired after having run this morning.&nbsp; Some days unfold such that the intervening hours dampen the tiredness, but tonight the effect has stretched its long arm across the length of the day to reach me here.<\/p>\n<p>I feel like I&nbsp;have so much to say but it&#8217;s all fragmented.&nbsp; I rarely figure things out by talking about them&#8211;I&#8217;ve never been that kind of person, at least not initially.&nbsp; What tends to work the best is retreating, pondering the situation for a little while until I&#8217;ve figured out <em>how<\/em> I&#8217;m feeling and tied those emotions to specific causes, at which point I may &quot;present my findings&quot; to a willing ear and they can then assist in sorting the rest of it out (if they&#8217;re so inclined).&nbsp; The alternative to all that, or at least something which helps a great deal, is simply to find someone who <em>understands<\/em> how I&#8217;m feeling&#8211;it saves the trouble of having to explain myself (not that I mind under most circumstances but when there&#8217;s something weighing on me the stakes are a bit higher) and I can just focus on the particulars of the situation.<\/p>\n<p>This is all very vague; I&nbsp;know.&nbsp; Normally at this point I&nbsp;would hide behind some hackneyed poetry or half-prose, but it feels like ages since I&#8217;ve done any of either and, well, I dunno&#8230;&nbsp; I think I&#8217;m staying in the meta-data tonight.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>such are promisesall lies and jestsstill a man hears what he wants to hearand disregards the rest I have a headful of buzzing bees, never pleasant when I should be sleeping.&nbsp; It&#8217;s been a long day, and I&#8217;m especially tired after having run this morning.&nbsp; Some days unfold such that the intervening hours dampen the [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1314"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1314"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1314\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1314"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1314"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1314"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}