{"id":1153,"date":"2006-02-28T15:19:00","date_gmt":"2006-02-28T20:19:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=1153"},"modified":"2025-02-04T14:37:00","modified_gmt":"2025-02-04T19:37:00","slug":"strobe-light","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/?p=1153","title":{"rendered":"strobe light"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><!--more recycled chi--><\/p>\n<p>This is no good.  No good at all.<\/p>\n<p>Why am I attacked by my own mortality?<\/p>\n<p>They&#8217;re just relationships.<\/p>\n<p>You&#8217;re finding these things out.<\/p>\n<p>If I had them now, like gold in my hand.<\/p>\n<p>If I had them now, like GOLD in my hand.<\/p>\n<p>I can&#8217;t imagine her saying that to me and meaning it.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s beyond my scope.<\/p>\n<p>Do I want too much?  Need too much?<\/p>\n<p>If I take them one at a time I can circumvent the contradictions.<\/p>\n<p>They&#8217;re all like water rushing through my open hands, through my fingers.<\/p>\n<p>And I hold them open.<\/p>\n<p>What &#8220;they are?&#8221;  They&#8217;ve all been you mean.<\/p>\n<p>When&#8217;s it gonna&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Just above breathing.<\/p>\n<p><i>Je te veux.  J&#8217;te veux, ch\u00e9rie.  O\u00f9 es-tu?<\/i><\/p>\n<p>She I we they.<\/p>\n<p>Patient, waiting for the words.<\/p>\n<p>I feel ruined for anything sometimes.<\/p>\n<p>Can&#8217;t help second-guessing.<\/p>\n<p>This is over.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1153"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1153"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1153\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2492,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1153\/revisions\/2492"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1153"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1153"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.boldulysses.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1153"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}