mal assis
During prayer time Wednesday night, John prayed for hope for me. I have none. Absolutely none. I can augur nothing but a downward path at this point… I just don’t know what, if anything, will ever happen, could ever happen.
I am so, so tired of the indifference, the disdain and just the utter contempt… I’m tired of walking on pins and needles every time I’m around her, wondering if I’ll say too much and set her off. I’m tired of repeating myself 3 times to catch her attention when she has her headphones on and then brooking the inevitable, boundless annoyance when I share whatever it was I had to say…
I have not the smallest grain of hope.