November… December… remember
\nAre we just starting again?<\/i><\/p>\n
I can’t organize my thoughts. I can’t write if I can’t organize at least the beginnings of my thoughts into paragraphs. I’m unbelievably stressed, and I keep making mental notes to write about this or that in my journal, but there’s inevitably a mental impasse and I can feel the pressure building and building and building, like the water behind a dam…<\/p>\n
I flew this morning. Probably shouldn’t have, but I hadn’t flown since last Tuesday (because of the rain) and I need to stay on top of things, especially now that we’re practicing landings. I did four landings over at Twin Lakes and two at Sugar Valley, and maybe one out of the six was reasonably satisfactory. Regardless, the whole event takes such a degree of concentration at this point that after parking the airplane and shutting off the engine back on the ramp, I can barely get through the debrief on account of the release of pent-up emotion that shudders through me. It’s not healthy. I can’t be in this state when I solo in a couple of weeks. I’ll ball it up.<\/p>\n
There’s just…so much. Work, school, life–all three. I don’t know where to start. I don’t have anyone. Maybe things will settle down in a week or two; who knows.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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